07.01.2005 - to be away from you

"to be away from you"
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I long to look upon your face
  to watch your delicate features
  animated and expressive
    like ripples on water
      moving through a calm pool

Your eyes are deep wells of 
  soft silky brown
  radiant in their clarity
  comforting in their warmth
  gripping in their path
    weakening in their hold. 

Your mouth is small with long lips
  who's every movement is sinuine
    ends curling upward slightly
      pursed in contemplation of
        a quip or cleverness

And your lips, so soft and smooth - 
  I remember the third time you kissed me
    different from the first two... 
      those were swift, nervous, unsure kisses
        not wanting to linger for fear of the
          emotions that would bring

But the third kiss -
  it was slower, more gentle,
    you pressed into me at the pace of a dream
      with soft relaxed lips
        and I could feel
          every detail
            of their shape, texture 
              warmth, and tenderness...
        as our lips flattened and
        spread across each other during that
        second which lasted a lifetime in breath holding
        suspension of the moment of love growing
        with every subtle change of pressure
        eyes closed so as not to distract you coming
        towards me from the right side where I held you
        with one arm and my whole body
          and thoughts

I hold you now in my thoughts
  and remember this poignant moment
  and I imagine I can taste you on
    my quivering lips that have
      nothing but air to feel
      silence in my ears
      darkness in my eyes
      empty vacancy in my arms
      and I long to hear you
        hold you, touch you, see you...
      to fill this void that your absence
        imposes on my soul 

To be away from you 
   is to know your true significance.