chrysalis

09.23.2005 - standing on the bridge

09.23.2005

standing on the bridge
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standing on the bridge
  watching the swiftly flowing waters
  dark and roiling
    over smoothed stones
      far beneathe

listening to these waters
  i remember Ophelia
   and Te Luo Yi
   and the wild desperation
     the frantic eyeballs
     quivering on a calm face
       belying the 
         dark and roiling waters
         flowing over smoothed stones
           in thier souls

i remember thier panic
  fleeing a life gone wrong
  thrown by basic
    survival instinct
  over the edge of the bridge
    succumbing to the
      eternal waters 
        of death

like them, 
  i stare into those waters
    something hidden 
      passing briefly
        across my surface

now, 
  i stare into the still waters
    of a glass of beer
    and throw myself in -
      not quite suicide
      but not quite living
      waiting for that day
        when i too will
          float limply 
            in those
            swift waters