02.25.2006 - hope is eternally renewable

hope is eternally renewable
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blankly,
  i wake from this cycle of dreams
    that swallowed hours of 
      mid morning solitude

  the repetative reliving of 
    moments in time
    when i lessened my value
    in those eyes
      who's sparkling, dancing wit
        ever stay distant

the clanging and clamouring,
  carrys a message to my ears:
    the cancellation of planned events.

    future once more cleared
      but that feels smothering
        not free
          like it should.

so, 
  with whisps of worry
    trailing from the extremities of my heart
      and with maintenance ignored
      i move forward to find
        a comfortable and familiar
        situation
        to wash away these remnants

hoping,
  for the clarity of focus
    that emphemeral point where
    expression occurs
  i order coffee in this cafe
    but as i speak those words
    a new thread of wonder
      is woven through my thoughts
        an honest smile
        square jaw
        and flat blue pools
          set gently into place
        an unassuming benefaction
          and an intuative grace
    thank you for waking me
      and clearing away my
        haze of morning madness
          accumulate

the future is no less
  fearsome
    but for your encounter
      it is restricted less



- for the barista at red and black cafe this morning