08.03.2004 - idle self-absorbed thoughts dripping out in poem

idle self-absorbed thoughts dripping out in poem
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c. -

i know my thoughts turn to you in excess,
   and that causes you to recede,

but i hunger for your presence,
and i long
   for this hunger to feed.


i saw you unexpectedly,
   and i was caught rapt,
but i saw in your eyes naught
but

   distraction and
       bored with me.

i saw your eyes light up,
   when talking to my friend.

i felt myself disappear,
   your attention drawn away.

disoriented, i left,
   time ticking me on my way.


so now i'll swallow the fearfulness
   and hope to catch your fancy
      upon another day.